The Pursuit of Happiness with Sparkles

This blog may disappoint a few but get used to it..life is full of sand in your cracks....

Depression SUCKS

I am one of the many who battle this damn disease daily and lately that battle has been really tough. 

Yes I admit it, I am the weirdo in a foetal position in the corner crying my eyes out more days than I care to think about.  So there. Some people would be suprised to know this, though some people who know me would just be nodding their heads wisely.

I have to start by saying that I have a personal hatred of the word Depression. 

It sounds so awful and lame - come on guys what a crap word, they even use it on the weather channel..."Sunny and warm in Melbourne and there is a small depression over Tasmania"...hell, if I lived in Tasmania I'd have more than a small depression....

Let's rename the bugger....let's call it "Sparkles"....don't ask why - just do it ok...

When I wake up in the morning after having a shit night's sleep where my life has been shredded into tiny fragments and thrown to the wolves - I can say "Good morning Sparkles, would you like some coffee and toast....maybe being a better hostess may be the way to go....she might not come around so often if she knows she is welcome...See, that old reverse psychology trick...

Anyway, Sparkles is here for a visit...and she has bought her friends,

Mr I. M Somnia and Mrs I. R. Rational......

they often travel together and make a great touring party.  Lots of laughs (insert sarcastic tone here)

I do however often wonder why me?  Why not someone else....like my neighbours - they need a little "quietening down"...

Medically, I do understand the machinations of "Sparkles"...seratonin levels in the brain and all that...well, that is all good and well but why can't I have something else happening in my brain - like a rejuvenation of vital brain cells to replace the ones Savingnon Blanc has wiped out over the years - but hey what a way to go guys!.

So, maybe what I am trying to say is if you wake up and don't want to look the day in the eye and you feel shithouse - TALK TO SOMEONE.  I get up everyday - safe in the knowledge that there are other people out there who are dealing with the same feelings and isolation. 

Alright, Sparkles wants me to get her some toast and tea - might just give her the mouldy stuff at the back of the pantry and spit in her tea - that'll piss her off....

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